Life after miscarriage

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3 months ago almost to the day, my husband and I heard words that came out of the doctors mouth that will forever be engrained in our minds: there’s no heart beat. . . .All I could do was cry in hopes that it would clear the thoughts running through my mind and that it would wake me from this terrible dream I was having. How could I have a miscarriage? I have two children already so clearly there is no way this could be happening to me. Was I being punished for something? Was this just bad karma? Did I exercise too much while being pregnant? Why why why? Isn’t that the ultimate question?. . . .Why?

I figured that along with any other grief I had encountered,  this would hurt for a while and then I would just move on. Life doesn’t slow down or stop for you. I consider myself to be a pretty strong person. Whenever I’ve encountered a struggle or hardship in life, I think I’ve come back stronger and wiser than I was before.

BUT this whole process has ROCKED ME TO MY CORE. There is no better way to describe it. I have never felt so out of tune with my emotions, my body, and even the world around me. I felt like there was a hole in my stomach , an ache that I don’t think will ever truly go away. Something was taken from me that I had no say in. The decision was inevitably made for me and I wasn’t okay with it. I cried and cried and cried and then cried some more. I didn’t know what else to do. Nothing else seemed to make sense or help. And even the crying only helped for a short period of time. I knew that life would go on and eventually things would return to somewhat normal. A part of me selfishly wanted everything to just STOP if only for a moment. Stop so I could figure myself out. Stop so I could process what was happening and at least try to make sense of it. But as many people who have suffered a loss know, things don’t quite work like that.

When life throws you a curve ball and you swing and miss, you still need to keep playing. Your team or the people you love need you. They want to play alongside you and they want to see you succeed. I feel as though I have gained a lot of clarity through this process which has been a positive from a very hard and saddening situation. I was shown just how amazing my husband is. I knew it before but he was my #1 support through our miscarriage. I never for a second doubted him and we are even closer now than we were before which I didn’t think was possible. I have some amazing friends who never wavered and were there without asking any questions or making me feel guilty for the way I was feeling. I was very saddened to see that someone who I thought would always be there for me simply wasn’t.  It was my mom. For whatever reason she wasn’t there for me even for a second and I have come to terms with the fact that I can’t change it and the way she reacted has nothing to do with me. It’s easy to believe people when they say they are there for you but you will never really know if that’s true unless something like this happens.

In the end I have learned a lot about life. How fragile it is and that nothing is ever guaranteed. That people can surprise you in the best and worst way. That you are almost always stronger than you give yourself credit for. And more importantly, that we don’t have as much control as we like to think we do. Events are going to happen whether you want them to or not. Whether you’re ready for them or totally unprepared. Whether the people in your life are going to support you or walk away. All I know now is that I carry hope in my heart that there will be a rainbow after this crazy storm and there is still lots of joy and happiness coming our way. And the most important thing that keeps me going is that even though we never got to meet our precious baby , hear their heart beat, or feel their warm touch. . .they were surrounded by so much love.xoxo

All in love❤

Hilary. B

Are you pregnant yet?

Excuse my lack of communication on my website for so long. Sometimes my words don’t always come out the way I want them to or I would write a post but it just didn’t sound right so I hit that good ol delete button.

I’ve actually been experiencing a lot of baby on the brain. Our little girl is almost one and of course as they reach that milestone you don’t get asked the normal questions anymore. Such as, is she walking yet? What kinds of foods does she like? What’s her favourite book? Nope, none of that. Instead people look you right in the eye and say are you pregnant yet? Currently my social media is BLOWING UP with pregnancy announcements, mostly couples we know having their second, third, or even fourth child. I’m not going to lie here. As I scroll through my newsfeed I hold my breath knowing that I am happy for these people but I long to have my pregnancy announcement up there too!

It’s no secret to out friends and family that we have been trying for a few months now. My recovery was really amazing after my daughter and I felt great so why not? Getting pregnant with Molly was like a one and done deal. It happened soooo quickly that I almost died of shock when I saw those two pink lines. Now this time around, things are taking a little longer and while I thought I was getting impatient, everyone around us seems to be even more. Like they’re sick of asking if we are yet, or how’s it going, or saying the famous it’ll happen when it’s meant to happen. Here’s an idea, and I’m including myself for these words of wisdom too, DON’T ASK!!!!!! Right now our friends and us are at the stage in our lives where the weddings are all over and now people are expanding their families. I sense there is a lot of competitiveness going around about who will be the first to announce they are expecting again. I’m just as guilty as the next person for asking the annoying question which is maybe why it’s taking us a little bit longer this time around. I can now semi relate to all those women who are asked repeatedly when they are going to have a baby.

What I am now trying to remind myself is that there could be many scenarios as to why someone isn’t pregnant:

  1. They don’t want to have children (oh my god scandalous! But kudos to you for owning that decision and not letting society make it for you)
  2. They can’t have children- sadly enough this is becoming a more and more common situation. Many women are choosing to take their infertility public in hopes to inspire others going through the same thing. But let’s not forget about those who wish to keep it a private matter an deal with it quietly. They deserve that respect
  3. They don’t want anymore- I’ve always thought it was very cool that you would know one girl who was an only child, but then the girl down the street was the oldest of six. For whatever reason ( and it’s really none of our business) families are played out in a way that works for that family. If you want a house full of kids that’s awesome, but for the families who are content with one child ( or none) that’s just as great and special for them.                                   In conclusion I think together we need to work on sticking our foot in our mouth a little more when it comes to such a private and sensitive subject of having children. You don’t realize how complicated people can make it or how much pressure until it’s staring you right in the face. So how about this? The next time you’re in a conversation with someone and you feel that question  about to come out of you like verbal diarrhea, take a deep breath and say how’s the family?😊

Be here. . .Seriously

The other day I was walking up the back path on our farm with my 6 month old daughter. Just enjoying the warm weather (I LOVE the heat), and I was looking around and thinking about how far I have come not only as a person, but as a mother, wife, friend, every title I have in my life. 6 years ago I couldn’t just walk and be alone with my own thoughts. I would have my headphones in, music as loud as it could go without blowing my ear drums, and walk like I was trying to escape from something. At the time I didn’t know it, but I think subconsciously I was trying to escape from the life I was living. I became a mother for the first time at 19. I don’t expect sympathy because it was my choice and my decision to go down that path in life. Unfortunately for me I didn’t appreciate motherhood for all that it was and all that it could make me. I didn’t appreciate the little moments like walking in nature with my little one, treasuring every smile, and stroking his hair while he slept soundly. So I guess this specific post is about being in the now.

  1. Kids don’t stay kids forever- Right now I have the pleasure of experiencing both ends of the spectrum. I have a 7 year old who has grown and has developed his own personality and way of doing things. He is his own person and makes his own decisions everyday some good and some not so good. Then I have the 6 month old who is fully dependent on me, thinks I’m the funniest person alive, and who can’t stop me when I pinch her cheeks and kiss her face way too much. What I’ve noticed more now than ever is that it truly goes in the blink of an eye. Before you know it this person you have shaped is off doing there own thing, doing their own activities and creating a life away from you. Which I make sound horrible but it’s definitely a positive thing. But this just means that you have to truly appreciate every special little moment with your child. Every age has different moments, and the special moments may change from snuggling, the reading a story together. Whatever it may be, you have to be there for it. Let it consume you and treat it as though this is the most important moment in your life.
  2. Like it or not marriage and relationships change and evolve- I still remember my first date with my husband. The smell of the leather seats in his car, his bright eyes, his dimples, and those working man hands. Now all of those external features are still there, but I may not always notice them in the same way anymore. We get comfortable in our relationships , as you really should being with someone you love and who loves you just as you are. Day to day duties, jobs, kids, stresses seem to engulf you as a couple and before you know it your relationship has changed before your eyes. I believe I have a great marriage, but I also know that I don’t always treasure our special time together. Really soak it all up. Laying in bed talking, watching a show together, just driving around together. Basically having him there. Many people lose spouses whether it’s because of illness, sudden accident, or divorce. So if you are in a good relationship with someone you love, I challenge you to really be grateful for them and appreciate even 5 minutes of alone time you may have. Maybe next time don’t say you’re too tired for sex, or put your phone down and focus on them. This is the person you’ve chosen to spend your life with, and not everyday is roses and rainbows, but treat them with the up most love and respect that you felt the first time you ever met them.
  3. What you have, no matter how small, is worth A LOT- In our home we have mismatched couches, doors in every corner since it’s an old farm house, mismatched dishes, crumbs on our floors, and cobwebs in certain corners. Our home isn’t perfect and neither are the people that live under it’s roof. But the people and relationships are worth more than anything in this house. Some people have the pleasure of having a lot, and others are just scraping by. This is just the way life is, and probably ho it’s always going to be. I believe with age comes wisdom and with that wisdom comes the realization that memories and life and love are built with people and not things. Relationships are what help us all survive this crazy life, and what keep us  going. If I continue to have the people in my life that I have now, and I never make much more than I do now, I could survive. Money does funny things to people and just buys temporary things. Relationships are permanent and can last a lifetime.

So I guess if you take anything away from this just try to appreciate and practice gratefulness for what you do have and the little moments that you are given. They don’t last a lifetime and little moments make up your life. Teach your children and grandchildren and keep the message going on.

Women Who Inspire

It seems fitting to be making this post on Mother’s Day. Happy mother’s day to you mama’s out there! When I say women who inspire I\m not just talking about the usual suspects that come in the form of our mother’s, grandmother’s, sisters, friends. It has occurred to me that I have had the chance to meet women who really make me step back and go “Wow, she is really passionate about what she does” Some of these women I have known for a long time, some I have only met a few times, and some I only communicate with on social media if we are involved in a specific group together. You can either know them very well, or be inspired by what you see when you take a step back. I’m going to list a few and some on the list may seem strange, but being in their presence or even just talking to them has been inspiring at some point.

My Hairdresser- This may seem pretty lame to some and a tiny bit shallow. I have known my hairdresser since I was 4 years old. I look forward to seeing her every time I go in not just because my hair looks amazing when I leave, but because of the conversations I have with her when I’m there. In a world of social media it’s sooo nice to have a good conversation face to face with someone. She has 3 children that are now grown up, but she is always sharing her experiences with me and reminding me that a bad day doesn’t last forever. Whenever I leave her I feel refreshed, hopeful, and energized. Most of all I feel thankful to have her in my life. No matter the circumstance we are introduced to amazing women all the time.

My Essential Oil Guru- Now I haven’t known this woman for very long. I met her at an essential oil party about 3 months ago. She is not only an essential oil enthusiast but a full time kindergarten teacher and a busy mother of three. Her family is what inspired her to start using essential oils due to the fact that they are more natural and better for your overall health. I was captivated by her when she was talking because of her passion, humor, and love of teaching others about essential oils. She is a wealth of knowledge and passion and that is something I really appreciate. Passion is infectious, and there is nothing more beautiful then seeing someone talk about something they love. She has taught me a lot and I appreciate our newfound relationship because of essential oils and for sharing all the knowledge she has to give.

My Massage Therapist- I know I am lucky to be able to have a massage therapist. It’s not something everyone has the luxury of doing. I was fortunate enough to be referred to her by a friend who was going to her for prenatal massage. I was having quite a few aches and pains in my pregnancy and wanted to nip that in the bud if I could. I started going to her every 3 weeks and the rest is history. She allowed me to feel top notch during my pregnancy which isn’t always easy for women. She knows so much about the body especially during pregnancy which made me feel as though I was in very good hands (literally). I still go to her five months after and she has allowed me to transition easily from pregnant mama, to feeling like myself again mama.

Yoga teacher/photographer- This is a women that wears many many hats. She is a yoga teacher, a photographer, a doula, and she specializes in prenatal and post natal care. She is I guess what you would call the typical yoga teacher. She’s very spiritual, likes organic, very chill person. It’s no secret from the people that know me, that I can be a bit high strung. Nothing makes me happier than when I have people in my life that are the exact OPPOSITE of me. I appreciate that they have the qualities that I find so hard to master in myself. Maybe I will never be that type of person and that’s okay. She has not only shown me the awesomeness of yoga, but she was also the photographer for our wedding and newborn photos after our daughter was born. She has seen me go through many phases in my life and I see her as an inspiring golden hearted women who I am lucky to call a friend.

In turn, this list may seem strange to some, but it just goes to show that there are women everywhere that can influence us and make our days a little brighter just by being themselves. All you have to do is look around. How lucky am I that I was introduced to so many inspiring women who have brought nothing but positive energy and happiness into my life 🙂 We can’t possibly have every single amazing quality the world has to offer, people aren’t made to be perfect. It’s refreshing to allow people in our lives that bring qualities and ideas to the table that we might have not even thought of. I hope this encourages you to look around and all the amazing women in your life.xo Happy mother’s day.

What Love is Really All About

We all know the fairy tales and we all have a pretty picture as to how we want our life to be. There’s movies, books, magazines, advertisements, everything that tries to tell us what love is all about. I always thought that somebody didn’t really care about you unless you were getting flowers daily, poems, romantic dinners and candles on a weekly basis. I’ve been in a really crummy relationship that was the polar opposite of that and made me want simpler things like someone staying in with me to watch a movie or going to bed at the same time as me so I don’t have to feel alone. I guess it’s true that you can’t truly appreciate something really great until you have experienced something not so great. Now I’m much more realistic about love, as I’m sure a lot of parents are now. You truly appreciate the little things. So I’ll list a few that my wonderful husband probably doesn’t even realize he’s doing on a daily basis 🙂

1. Changing Poopy Diapers- There is truly nothing sexier to me than a husband who changes a poopy diaper or any diaper for that matter. He never makes a big deal about it and the best part is I can hear him chatting away to our daughter as he’s doing it. He doesn’t know that it’s a very special moment for the two of them and it allows me to get something else done. Like every good thing in life, there are some things that aren’t so great that go along with it. Changing diapers is no ones favourite thing but it has to be done. He gets that and realizes after I’ve done it all day, it helps that he does a few for me.

2. Taking Us Into Town- We live on a dairy farm two minutes from town so not far but far enough to get that country feel. During the day I don’t always get out with my daughter simply because the motivation isn’t there or I don’t really have a purpose to. If my husband needs to go to town to get something, sometimes we’ll all go. We usually stop for a coffee which is a wonderful thing in itself. He doesn’t mind taking us for a drive and getting us out of the house. He clearly enjoys spending time with his family and doesn’t make a big deal about me taking forever to get ready, or having to pack up a diaper bag and lugging a carseat around. It’s those little moments that are actually a really big deal to me.

3. I can use him as a body pillow- I am always cold unless there is heavy humidity in the air. Even then I will wear a sweater. My favourite part of the day is snuggling up to my man pillow to warm up. Even when  I was 9 months pregnant, he didn’t mind feeling baby kicks on his back as I spooned him. I hope that didn’t affect how manly he felt? Whoops, sorry honey 🙂 He gets the tiniest sliver of the bed and no covers some nights. I move constantly when I sleep, I drool on him, and snore like Darth Vadar. But he always lets me cause he knows it brings me comfort and I like having that him and me time.

4. He eats whatever I cook- I try to eat as healthy as I can and my husband is  a typical meat and potatoes kind of guy. I try out new recipes and make things that aren’t always his favourite. There are some nights I cook lazy things like grilled cheese and tomato soup cause I don’t feel like doing anything else. But he always eats it. He doesn’t look at me like I’m crazy, or turn up his nose like my six year old does quite frequently. He simply appreciates that he doesn’t have to cook for himself which makes it easier for me when preparing meals. It’s bad enough having a son who is the first to say when he doesn’t like something (even when he’s had it before). But my hubby sets the example and eats every last bite. Thanks for eating my weird, healthy, lame, 5 minute suppers honey.xo

5. He makes my dreams come true-I love animals. I love their gentle nature and love that they show for you when they are treated properly. I love the cows on our farm, our two dogs, and I fell in love with goats when he took me to a goat farm. Ever since then I have dreamed of having goats of my own, that I can call my pets, and extend my love for animals. Well I am now the proud owner of goats and he made that happen for me. For Christmas I got a homemade goat shed that he made with some friends, and my birthday present were goats of my own. He didn’t make a big deal, he just said okay we’ll do it. How amazing is that? How many women can say my husband got me goats? That’s what I thought.

In conclusion, it’s the little things. Our husbands or partners do things everyday to help us or make us feel loved. We just have to choose to see that. Real love isn’t always roses and candles and poems. Realistic and lasting love is being a team, being a best friend, confidant, shoulder to cry on. I never knew what it meant to marry your best friend until I found mine. I honestly look at him everyday when he doesn’t realize and smile because I have this wonderful person in my life. I highly recommend marrying your best friend, and appreciating all the little things they have to offer. All that adds up and believe me it’s everlasting.

Relationships and Motherhood

We all know that as life changes so do relationships. Some we have our whole lives, some come and go like the seasons. They all generally teach us something whether it’s good bad or ugly. Something I have noticed is that relationships once you are a mother change. Sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worst. I like to think looking back now that big changes like motherhood really show you people true colours. It can be a relationship with a spouse, with close friends, and even family. I’m going to list a few where I noticed the biggest changes and how that can affect you as a person, mother, and human being.

Spousal Relationship- I have two very different experiences. I had my son when I was 19 years old. He is almost 7 now and he is a lot of the reason why I am the way that I am (in the best possible way of course). Unfortunately for his father and for my son, his dad pretty much checked out the day he was born. I don’t want to get too personal but some men and women too just aren’t cut out to be parents. No matter what the circumstance and age, genetically some of us just don’t have that gene in us. A lot of the time it isn’t realized until after the child is born and then that makes things more complicated for everyone. I am married now and together we have a baby girl who is now 5 months old. My husband was ready to be a father and it definitely brings out the best in him. We were a good team before but now we are an even better one. Raising a human being is a lot of work and it truly shows us our strengths, weaknesses, and how much we can actually do with no sleep whatsoever. It’s one of the biggest tests of a relationship because a lot changes for both parties.Your spouse is the only other person who knows EXACTLY what you are going through because they deal with it too.  This time around has been a lot better for me but unfortunately you can never really know until you’re in that position.

Friend Relationships- I’ve heard it all before. From the if you ever need me to watch the baby for a few hours while you nap I will, or I’ll pop over all the time to keep you company. Trouble is, reality hits and people are busy. Plain and simple we all have a lot going on in our lives. Friends who don’t have children find it very hard to relate to you when you have a child. It’s not their fault or yours, it’s just that now your life is consumed with this baby that you grew in your body for 9 months and now get to cuddle and gah gah over as much as you would like. Friendships that you have had all throughout your life are some of the hardest to keep going. You go through so many changes and when  person isn’t at the point you are in your life it can make it hard for both of you to relate as much as you used to. You go from having the chance to see these people as much as you want, to having to plan coffee dates and girls nights out 3 months in advance so you can prepare leaving your child for a few hours, actually getting yourself excited to go somewhere because you are dog tired, and trying your best to feel somewhat normal again for an evening. The good news is that when you do get to see your closest friends, even if it’s once in a blue moon, it’s as though time hasn’t passed at all. They still recognize you as you and understand your need for adult conversation and getting caught up on all the gossip you have missed in your baby bubble. It’s always quality over quantity. Treasure those 3 hour coffee chats, and 6 months in advance trips to the spa. That is going to be what you remember when you look back and reflect on your friendships.

Family Relationships- The teenage years seem to be when we really try to ignore our parents, get embarrassed by them, and think that they know nothing about life. Cause you know everything right? Becoming a parent yourself makes you realize that when you were younger, you knew ABSOLUTELY NOTHING and your parents knew EVERYTHING.Damn it. For the most part, these relationships become the strongest and more important in your life. After all, they are what shape you as a person, and your children are going to learn from the relationship that you not only have with them, but your own parents and family members too. It’s easy to say that Family is really important, but when you are building one of your very own it really becomes a reality. In most families, of course there are always the exceptions, they are the group of people that truly want the best for you. They’ve seen you through EVERY SINGLE STAGE of your life. From pooping in your diaper, to your first really bad break up, to having your first child. Now they will be there all over again for birthday parties, graduations, weddings, you name it. Family will always be there.

Relationships are always what you are going to be remembered for. Doesn’t matter if you have 5 friends or 50 friends. Either way you are going to be remembered by the people who knew you the best. People come and go from your life, that’s just the way it goes. At the time it seems more tragic than it really is because you don’t always see the bigger picture. The bigger picture is that, it’s the people that stuck around, were there when you needed them, backed off when you needed that too, and who have seen you hit rock bottom and climb the highest mountain. Motherhood makes you appreciate relationships because you want the very best for your children and want them to have people like that in their lives too. It makes you realize not only what is important but who is important. Motherhood gives you the reality check you have probably always needed, and the clarity when it comes to who people truly are. Thank goodness for motherhood. It’s a swift kick in the ass in the best possible way 🙂

Pressures of a Stay at Home Mom

The title of this blog may seem strange to some. I thought only working mom’s had the weight of the world on their shoulders? I think it’s safe to say that all mom’s tend to carry the weight of not only their lives, but for the people they love as well. Whether you work away from home, at home, or caring for your children is your full time job, it’s all hard and you are certainly not alone in thinking that. I have been a working away from home mom, and now I am able to stay at home with my children. I didn’t realize the pressure, guilt, and stress that mom’s who stay at home put on themselves. . .until I became one. I’ll admit I thought it would be so nice. I would be able to go out for coffee with fellow mom friends, have the cleanest house on the block, and cook three course meals every night for my husband and kids to enjoy. WRONG! I’m lucky if I get a shower in, there is always some sort of food on my kitchen floor that I let the dogs vacuum up, and I still go through the drive thru when I realize that it’s dinner time and I have nothing out for supper. Whoops! SOOOO I thought I would list some of the pressures that I have been feeling the most during my time at home:

  1. TAKE YOUR CHILD TO EVERY PLAY GROUP KNOWN TO MAN KIND- It’s true that play groups are a good way to get out of the house, keep your sanity, and if you’re lucky maybe make some new mommy friends. But sometimes getting out of the house seems like the worst idea in the world. Sometimes we just want to stay at home with our children, stay in our pajamas, and nurse our cups of coffee without wrangling kids out of the door on a time crunch. Years ago, there weren’t any play groups and I think we turned out just fine. No one should dictate to you what you should do with your own children.
  2. YOU MUST MAKE FRIENDS WITH EVERY MOTHER YOU MEET- When I do venture out to play groups my main priority is to have a fun time with my children and to get us out of the house for a bit. Some mom’s feel as though they have to connect and get every mother’s phone number they meet and set up coffee dates and play dates. Truth is, motherhood can be it’s own form of high school. You aren’t going to like every mom you meet, I could name a few, and they  aren’t always going to like you. Accept it and don’t feel like you have to change who you are and what kind of parent you are. Enjoy the time with your children!
  3. WHAT DID YOU DO TODAY?- This is the worst question a spouse could ask to someone who has been at home looking after children all day. I think kept our children alive is a valid response. Some days it does seem like survival and that is a normality in the parenting world. If you try to have at least one day a week where you are really productive like cleaning the bathrooms, or making an extra special meal, or catching up on laundry, then that is a really big deal for you! Time gets away on us, and spending quality time reading or laughing with your child is more important than dishes in the sink, or clothes waiting to be folded. Don’t worry they will be waiting for you at the end of the day 🙂
  4. HOW ARE YOU GOING TO MAKE MONEY?- It’s true that being a parent is a full time job. Unfortunately parents don’t get paid what they’re worth. There’s a reason there are so many companies that are run from mom’s (and even dad’s)  who are at home. Think Epicure, Thirty One, Pampered Chef, Scentsy, the list goes on. I know women who work for these companies and they absolutely love it. They get some extra cash in their pockets and everyone is happy at the end of the day. But there are parents who don’t feel like they need to do this nor do they want to. And that’s okay. If you and your spouse have figured out your financial situation and you not earning money doesn’t cause added stress, then count your lucky stars. Don’t feel like you have to be roped into selling people things they don’t really need. Spend your days the way that works best for you.

I could truly go on and on, but I think you get the point. We are all faced with pressures whether you’re at an office all day, or your living room is your office. We wouldn’t want our kids to be pressured into things they don’t want to do, so why should we be any different. Do your thing, and if someone has a problem with it, feel free to tell them where they need to go 🙂

Why do mom’s workout?. .For real

This is a question as a mother I get asked over and over and over again. The bigger question is why does anyone workout? Why is it that mom’s have to be put into a certain category? I suppose it’s safe to assume (I try not to do that too much cause you know what that makes you and me), that we may have more motivation because we are desperately trying to get our bodies back. I don’t know about you but I have accepted the fact that my body is never going to be exactly the same as it was before and you know what? That’s okay! Growing another human being inside of you is not only hard work but I think it’s pretty bad ass too. It’s the hardest thing a woman will ever do but the most rewarding (depends on the day and mood of the child), no ifs ands or buts about it. But I digress. . .what was my point? Oh right why mom’s workout.

I don’t know about the rest of you, maybe you totally disagree or maybe you are thinking the same thing but just don’t want to say it out loud. Working out when you’re a mom is a selfish act in the best possible way. Does that even make sense? To us it does. We want some ME time, a no kid zone, a judgement free bubble, a trainer or instructor we can take our frustrations out on, and to feel NORMAL again. Granted the workouts aren’t always the sweatiest especially if we’re jogging with a friend and just happen to get stuck sitting outside on a beautiful day drinking Starbucks 🙂 But the effort is there, and trust me. Any activity that may give mom a little more patience, energy, and clarity is a good one. So husbands, children, fellow mom’s who are just pissed they don’t have the motivation to do anything besides gossip, do us all a favor and just let it be! Let us do our thing in our yoga pants, top knots, and Starbucks coffee in hand. Happy mama means no drama.xo

New to the neighbourhood

My very first blog post on WordPress.com! I am a stay at home mama, wife to a dairy farmer,animal lover, fitness enthusiast, friend, daughter, sister, everything you’ve probably heard before. Give me a break I’m new at this! My day to day life is full of quirks, surprises, inspirational moments, chaos, temper tantrums, poopy diapers, loads of laundry, cold suppers, late nights, blood, sweat, and tears. Maybe I was exaggerating a little at the end but you get the bases of it. I have a lot of thoughts throughout the day that can range from grocery lists, to how I’m going to pay for my children’s college or university. The wheels are always turning and sometimes that can be exhausting. When I have a moment of peace there is nothing I love more than reading a good blog that can either be hysterical, pull at your heart strings, or better yet both! I know there are a lot of mamas out there just trying to survive the day to day just like me. No we aren’t kidding. Motherhood, marriage. . .it’s all a lot to juggle. But here we are, being the best clowns in the circus by juggling more than anyone else. I hope that this blog is something that anyone really can sit down with a cup of coffee and relate to. I’m sure you won’t always agree with me, and I don’t expect you too. I hope you laugh, maybe get a good cry, shake your head, nod your head, whatever it is you do behind your computer screen. Please try and keep it PG:) I will be talking about everything from being a mama, working on a dairy farm, relationships, healthy eating and fitness. I’m up for anything. If there’s something you want to hear my opinion on (God help you) then ask away. That’s what a blog is all about right? So I hope if you get anything out of my posts, it’s the feeling that there is someone else out there dealing with similar day to day tasks and challenges. We’re all in this crazy thing called life together.xoxo mamahil